It makes it hard to trust even people from within our own communities sometimes when this country trains people to be cutthroats to survive. But, because we want to believe in our people we lower our defenses and give them the benefit of the doubt, hoping against hope that this time we will not be burned, doing our best not to guilt them with the harms done by others in the past. There is goodness in everyone’s heart, no matter how hard it is to find, it is there nonetheless. The question is; do we have the desire to find it and to draw it out if need be? Because they may also not be used to exposing their vulnerability in this violent world, so used to being burned by others. We have to make ourselves trustworthy as well. One person, one heart at a time we can pull apart this faulty system of indoctrination to establish a new tribe of humanity.
I have been thinking to myself about this project that I know I cannot afford by myself and of which I am relying on the community to help make possible. And what I have been thinking is that if god and the universe what this to be, then it will come to pass and I just have to keep putting one foot in front of the next because that is what is directed of me to do.
I wish I had the power to conjure up the voice of the great spirit and grasp the ever so gentle whispers of assurance, but that is not who I am. I am a man who by rights should not be alive, let alone at the University of Washington studying History and Philosophy preparing for Law and the United Nations. It is only by grace that I am.
So, I guess it boils down to faith and trust that this is what I am supposed to be doing and just keep doing the next indicated thing.
What an incredible journey life is.